toughest day

Today is the hardest day for me . After feeling better from all the alcohol, I feel much worse than before. I just can't shut off my brain. There is no one that can help me. Anyways, I am wide awake sitting here dead to to the screen. Orginally planned to have a trip to see the view at San Juans Island. I'm going to drive there by myself to sober up. Don't bother calling me today. No one ever calls me anyways. I just don't want to be bothered right now. I am miserable.